Just Being Me

I just came back from lunch with my high school friends, Wen Ying and Nicholas at the mamak, which i unfortunately can't eat coz of my silly sore throat. Nicholas and i were chatting bout our, and soon to be my life in Australia.

he told me the tips to surviving australia. which bank? Commonwealth. which phone provider? Three (o.o?). which hall? Richardson. but i'd heard dat richardson is full already. the next best is deakin, which is apparently full already too. so now it's either farrer, roberts or one more i can't remember. he told me that most probably all the exchange ppl would be put in farrer. and he said that farrer was a party hall. this is not good.

then i asked bout the culture in australia. he said dat wat the australians like to do for the past time is to drink. >.< and the 'good' ones are snobbish, who thinks there're a class higher than us. and naive me, i thought i could have a few australian friends when i'm there.

this got me thinking. how am i gonna be true to myself and learn to be independent when i'm surrounded by such ppl? this may be a stereotype, but i have to think bout the worst at times right? if lets just say i'm in da farrers hall, the party hall; how am i gonna study at night?

i'm worried dat i couldnt adapt myself to the culture there. i'm worried dat when i couldnt adapt to the culture, my grades will drop. most of all, i'm worried bout being alone. all my years, there had always been someone behind me, my parents and my friends. there will always be someone to catch me when i fall. but now when i'm in aussie, i'm pretty much all alone.

will ya always be there for me even when we're apart?

well, i guess its time for me to face my biggest fear: being alone. i wonder, would i be strong enough to rise up to that challenge? will i be able to rise up from the ashes and continue fighting when the odds are against me?

i guess i can't answer that. my days in malaysia is limited, for now. i guess i'm gonna enjoy them to the fullest. :) it will be a whole new life ahead of me for the next 5 months. whether it will be filled with joy and laughter, or tears and sorrow, i would never find out, until i experienced it myself...

i shall put on a brave face and march forward, for there is always sunshine after rain.